A letter to my guide Sandeep Maheshwari
As I have mentioned in my previous blog on Vipassana, my spiritual journey started after doing 10days Vipassana course and I remember S. N. Goenkaji said once you get on your spiritual path you don't need to worry about next steps. Because you automatically come across people who are on the same journey or who will help you in your further journey directly or indirectly.
Sandeep Maheshwari is the person who guided me towards the next steps and my actual journey of knowing body, mind and consciousness began under his guidance. Here is my first letter to the team of my spiritual teacher Mr. Sandeep Maheshwari.
Dear Team Sandeep Maheshwari,
My name is Rasika Mane. I am from Kolhapur, Maharashtra. I completed my B.Tech. in Information Technology and currently I am working as a software engineer.
I have total 3.5 years of experience in IT.
In 2016 during my college days, YouTube suggested me a video of Sandeep sir in which Sandeep sir told that he is not earning any money through his seminars or through YouTube, This video made me to go through his YouTube channel. I found some motivational videos there I watched 1 or 2 and left.
During the end of year 2016 I was waiting for joining letter of my first job and was frustrated due to late joining, one of my friends suggested me Vipassana. I did Vipassana just to have some change, at that time, I was not at all aware of spirituality and all but I did it just because I knew meditation is good for mind and health, It improves focus and awareness, it makes us cool and calm. that's it! I continued vipassana meditation practice and it helped me a lot in improving my focus.
Then in January 2017 I started my job, In December 2017 I got married.
After few days of marriage, I started feeling like I have achieved everything that I wanted in life.. I had a good job with enough salary(for which I spent 20 years of my life😅), a good family, good friends.
I was feeling contented. I started feeling like all my wishes got completed now what's next??
I suddenly started thinking about the earth, the stars, the planets, the universe. What is life? Who am I? Why I am here? What is the purpose of my life? Not only my life but why everyone is here? Where are we from? What is birth? What is death? Where will we go after death? So many questions were started arising in my mind about which I never ever thought before.
I started watching videos related to quantum physics, physics, solar system, science so that I can find what is there beyond this universe, but didn't get much. It is still a mystery to science as well.
While searching the answers to my questions, I came to know that, there is only one way to find out 'who am I' and that is spirituality. (At that time I got what Vipassana is teaching, What's the exact purpose behind it). The whole purpose of any kind of meditation is to know 'Who Am I' and Vipassana is one of those tools.) I continued meditation for few months but didn't get anything from it. I thought meditation is not going to help me anymore, I was not able to find answers to any of my questions through meditation(may be I was not having enough patience). I stopped meditating. Still my intense curiosity about universe was there.
Then one day YouTube suggested me a video of Sandeep sir in which he was talking about the vipassana meditation and his kundalini awakening experience. I can't explain in words what I felt after watching that video. It was a ray of hope for me. I decided to follow his footsteps. if he can know, I too can know.
I watched all his videos on YouTube, apart from motivational videos lots of spiritual videos were there on his channel. I subscribed to his channel 'Sandeep Maheshwari Spirituality' so that I can't even miss a single peace of information from him. I got a lot of knowledge from him and I am really really grateful for the same. Without his guidance it was very difficult for me to continue on this path. I literally meditated on his every word.. every sentence.. every session and tried my best to perceive what exactly he is saying.
I am really very grateful to YouTube as well for suggesting me the right person's videos on right time😊.
After that I never stopped. Its been 3 years now I am meditating regularly, trying to know myself, asking questions to my inner self, reading spiritual books, reading biographies of spiritual people but I still don't have answers to few of my questions. There are theoretical answers which I found but I am not satisfied with them.
I know only I can find those answers, all the answers are within me. I will keep trying.
But definitely I would take whatever help I can take to reach to that inner giant.
I know many people in the world will have these questions in their mind at some point of time in their life. I want to discuss these things with Sandeep sir and I am sure that the discussion will bring something really beautiful, something very interesting that will be helpful not only for me but also for others continue on the journey of knowing the ultimate truth.
Thanks & Regards,
Rasika
After sending this email I have received a reply from team Sandeep Maheshwari to mention my contact details in mail (unfortunately I forgot to mention my contact details in mail) I replied to that mail with my contact number and eagerly waiting to talk to my spiritual teacher.
